?

Log in

No account? Create an account
I Don't Think This Parking Lot Is Big Enough to Hold All My Rocks of Rage - The Book of the Celestial Cow

> Recent Entries
> Archive
> Friends
> Profile
> My Website

December 4th, 2005


Previous Entry Share Next Entry
09:49 pm - I Don't Think This Parking Lot Is Big Enough to Hold All My Rocks of Rage
So I don't think I'm going to Austin.

See, most of you found out about the lack of marathon on Friday. It's easy to be gung-ho about it when you've been carrying all this excitement along all this time.

Rob told us there were Issues almost a month ago. Hell, for once, I learned something before eirefaerie did. At that time, we thought the entire thing was going to be called off. Rob said it was looking pretty grim. After a couple weeks, I pretty much resigned myself to the idea of the Alamo event not happening at all. Behind the scenes, the two parties were battling Warner Bros., but I was not hopeful. Every time someone mentioned the prospect of going to Austin or getting tickets to Austin, it bugged me not to be able to say anything, not to be able to say hope is an evil, horrible thing, and it eats you starting with your bottom.

Then, over Thanksgiving, Rob told me there was life still. But by that time I was already dead. All my enthusiasm and joy had dissipated. I wasn't going to get my hopes up again. Sometimes, being on the inside sucks.

A couple days before the tickets went on sale, I found out that the Drafthouse had negotiated a deal to make the event happen. The marathon was gone. The episode 11 premiere remained along with a clips/panel discussion. A clips/panel discussion. Twenty-two hours of awesomeness had been reduced to three. A unique experience had been reduced to the equivalent of the Paley Festival. Or Comic-Con. Or numerous other cast appearances. And I had not been preternaturally compelled to fly down for those.

See, in that month of thinking the marathon was off altogether, I did scrounge up some money I could conceivably use to fund a plane ticket to Houston (en route to Austin). Except I had been looking on the bright side and thinking, good, I actually have some money. Because, see, my bank account goes down every month. And, really, I hate complaining about that because I know I'm actually better off than some people. At least I have money in my bank account. But I have a crappy job that barely pays my rent, let alone my electricity, cell phone, cable, Internet, and, most recently, my loan payment. Also, I've been told I need food to survive. There is a real job in my future, but it is not here yet, and until then, I'm trying to make it as long as possible without going under and being forced to move back home. And that is something I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really don't want to do.

Okay, I used copy-and-paste for some of that. Most of that.

When the Marsathon became more of Marsa...something else, I decided I couldn't justify dropping money I really don't have on such a slim offering. If I hadn't already had momentum built up for it, I wouldn't consider flying down for something like that, right? I would just sit here and be jealous of the people in the area who could go. I mean, I still want to go, obviously. I want to meet eirefaerie and iheartbridges and the various other people who might end up going. I want to meet Rob and the cast. I want to be there for the world premiere of his directorial debut. To...support him, I don't know. It only happens once, you know.

The money from Kaplan, the money from my parents...it's not marked "Must use to go to Austin." It's marked "Here is some money." And, being as neurotic as I am, I can think of hundreds of other uses for that money. Maybe have some ice cream and feel like I can afford it. Maybe go to a play and feel like I can afford it. Maybe do...anything that involves money and feel like I can afford it. I think you guys are witness to the first LJ post that's made me cry while writing it. Maybe. Anyway. So that's why I'm probably not going, barring a sudden change in my brain chemistry or an influx of chicken salad.

larisa57: I had to tell you -- I was just talking to my sister, and mentioned "A guy I know got a shout-out on last week's VM." She responded, "You know Polter-Cow?!?"
spectralbovine: Haaa.
spectralbovine: Wow.
spectralbovine: That's...haaaa.
larisa57: you're famous!
larisa57: or something
spectralbovine: Apparently.
Current Mood: crushedcrushed
Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - All the Love in the World

(47 memoirs | Describe me as "inscrutable")

Comments:


Page 1 of 2
<<[1] [2] >>
[User Picture]
From:petunia846
Date:December 5th, 2005 02:58 am (UTC)
(Link)
What if I promised to bring chicken salad to Austin? I've never really made chicken salad, but I know some people who make it really well, and I bet I could get them to give me the recipe and teach me how to make it.

Meh. I know. *hugs*
[User Picture]
From:spectralbovine
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:00 am (UTC)
(Link)
Ooh, homemade chicken salad? I do not think I've ever had that! I think my first taste of chicken salad was the Chick-Fil-A chicken salad sandwich years and years ago. It was love at first bite. And I don't think they even make it anymore. Woe.

*hugs*
[User Picture]
From:kibarika
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:10 am (UTC)
(Link)
We can have a sour grapes party, you and me, with our test prep classes. I may not be spending the winter holidays with my 80+ year old grandmother because I need the cash money from TPR too bad, so I definitely feel your pain. You still gotta call me that day, though.
[User Picture]
From:briasoleil
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:11 am (UTC)
(Link)
I'm sorry to hear that the Austin thing isn't going to happen in the way that it was initially planned. I know that I was devastated when I realised that it just wouldn't be feasible for me to go there. (I know it seems like I shouldn't, as I'm not all that involved with the fandom and don't post on twop anymore [I simply can't keep up], but I love this show more than anything and have pimped it within an inch of my life.) In that vein, I can imagine how hard it must be for you to choose not to go.
From:babsonite
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:13 am (UTC)
(Link)
Yay for being famous!

And I'm sure Rob has will make this better somehow. Maybe we could have a TWoP day on the set or something...
[User Picture]
From:zimshan
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:19 am (UTC)
(Link)
Oh, man. This whole thing makes me so sad. And mad. Back when it was a marathon, it was so easy. I was gonna go. The end. But after Friday, I've been all indecisive girl, and after reading you post I know I basically have no business trying to shell out all that money to fly all the way to Austin for a just a small clips and panel session. Grr, I don't know what to do, but I'm definitely looking closer to reality than I was before. And grr, I hate reality! Damn you, reality!
[User Picture]
From:jeeperstseepers
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:24 am (UTC)
(Link)
You're killing me, P-C! *hugs* Your pain is my pain. Please be happy. Or just not sad. Please, please, please. You'll make some more money, you'll save some more money, and next time, when something as awesome as the marathon was supposed to be comes along, you'll be able to afford it and you'll be happy and your happiness will be my happiness.
[User Picture]
From:tiggz
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:26 am (UTC)
(Link)
yeah. i haven't posted about it, but i'm not going either. actually, even before i'd found out that it was being drastically re-worked i was considering not going. the big change solidified it for me.

i hope everyone who does go has a fabulous time and brings back lots of stories in spite of the fucking suits.
[User Picture]
From:amberlynne
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:27 am (UTC)
(Link)
Awww. That's disappointing. :(

But honestly, if I didn't live so close, I wouldn't even be considering it. Especially now that it's been trimmed AND everyone has had time to learn about it. I doubt I'll even be able to get a ticket now. Why do the Suits always have to ruin everything??
(Deleted comment)
[User Picture]
From:squaringkarma
Date:December 7th, 2005 01:07 am (UTC)
(Link)
My roommate is madcow .. followed by her birthdate. On AIM.
[User Picture]
From:chrisjournal
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:35 am (UTC)
(Link)
*hugs*

Just because. I don't know whether I'll make Austin or not, but I will say this: I've never gone to a media event just for the media, but more to meet the virtual people I've come to admire and respect. And I've never been disappointed, either. My entire situation is up in the air right now, but I've still got it in the back of my mind to turn up at 6 next Friday to roll the dice.
[User Picture]
From:debetesse
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:42 am (UTC)
(Link)
I feel your pain on the money thing. Really. I won't detail, but, yeah, being able to afford things would be nice.

Also on the parents, although less directly.

If there's anything...

::hugs::
[User Picture]
From:allthelivesofme
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:47 am (UTC)
(Link)
Awww. :-( Granted, I don't know very much about this whole thing, but I'm sorry to hear it didn't pan out like you were hoping. Fingers crossed that something'll happen soon to balance the scales, at least.
[User Picture]
From:denisef
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:50 am (UTC)
(Link)
{{{hugs}}}
[User Picture]
From:carpedi7
Date:December 5th, 2005 03:54 am (UTC)
(Link)
Awwww, I totally understand but at the same time I'm so disappointed that I'm not going to be able to meet you, that was one of the things that I was really looking forward too. faithx5 and I are still going because both of us want a vacation and since she is driving it cuts the cost some. Even if we don't get tickets we are going to go, but I totally understand the thing about the money. I probably shouldn't go and spend the money but since it isn't a plane ticket and the tickets to the event and hotel room for those nights are basically what I'm going to pay for I'm going to do it. {{{Hugs}}} and damn the stupid suits.
[User Picture]
From:toughcookie42
Date:December 5th, 2005 04:18 am (UTC)
(Link)
Haha: rocks of rage
{hug}: everything else

I suggest that you and I have our own VM marathon. Either when I'm done with finals or after break.

It's a strange and proud feeling that my best friend is "famous".
[User Picture]
From:spectralbovine
Date:December 5th, 2005 04:26 am (UTC)
(Link)
Whee, marathon!! If you're up for it, I'm up for it, since we never got to marathon Firefly.

And if you, like, want to sit in front of my computer for a while, we can catch you up on season two. UNFORTUNATELY WE CAN'T WATCH THEM ON MY DVR BECAUSE MOTOROLA CAN SUCK MY COCK.

We also haven't done 24, but that can wait.

> Go to Top
LiveJournal.com